When life gives you lemons, make lemonade.
….it’s easier said than done isn’t it?
This week has definitely felt all lemons and no sugar. Mentally I’m exhausted, emotionally I feel like I’m at the bottom of a well, and physically I’m achy and tired and just bleh. And of course, every moment that I spend feeling bad is another moment I beat myself up for, because why should I feel bad? Why should I be upset? My life is awesome. I’m literally blessed with privilege. I’m surrounded by people who love me. So why do I feel sad?
And then I have to remind myself that I’m not a robot. I’m human. And humans have feelings. And feelings are complicated. Complicated and valid. And I also have to remind myself that it’s ok to feel these feelings, it’s ok to let them in. And while I might not have any reason in my personal life to be sad, that doesn’t mean that my heart isn’t sad. The world is a dumper fire right now, America is a broken country now more than ever (and that’s saying something), and although I’m fighting in every way I can to help and make things right, it’s ok to still feel like it’s not enough. Like I’m not making a difference. Like I’m just one person, one voice, and there’s nothing that one voice can do.
Those feelings are valid. And they’re wrong.
And at some point, when I crawl out of this well, when I finally get my hands on some sugar, when the chemicals in my brain calm down and start working like they’re supposed to, I’ll remember that those sour, rotten thoughts are wrong. I may only be one person, one voice; but all it takes is for one voice to join with another, and another, and another, and each of those voices can make a difference.
So, while this week sucked in Roxy’s World, where there was no productivity, no creativity, no drive, and a serious lack of sparkles and rainbows; I’m gonna get better. I’ll crawl out of this well of depression and as I do I’ll gather the things I need to make the most amazing batch of lemonade you’ve ever tasted.
Because when life gives you lemons, no matter how long it takes, make lemonade.